My Feeling.

It's Christmas. Everyone should be happy but I felt sad at some time. Not because of the festival but because of myself.

I don't know why but I felt that something lost is really lost, hard to get it back. In this case, feelings. The past is a memory but it is not the same for the present. I felt sad because I got the feeling that it will never be better then the past. I felt as if I loss something really important in life.

It's really a faith to become friend who can really talk, if not, life would be so difficult.

However, I do cherish the one who love me that are always by my side. I love them too.
My new year resolution is out. More things to be added.
I must go exercise. After blogging out, it feels much better always.
Perception I guess.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Year 2011~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Aspiration

The name is right. The camp aspire me and learn a lot of things from there.

They learn from us the life skills, dance etc. I also felt that I have gain something from them. They are simple. They possess some things which we don't. I felt the love in camp. Although they may not listen to you but I think they know what is going on.

The camp has passed so fast. It was being known when I was in year 1 and going through 6 months planning when I was in year 2. Time flies. I miss the campers, the befrienders, the time we had together. If I have a chance to know how Aspiration Camp works, I might do a better job which I hope so.

It leaves a good impression in me and also a life long memory in my heart. People who went through should have the same feeling.

Loves!

I am in FOC OC again! I shall be prepared for the coming challenges.
I can do it! Jia You Yan Yee:]

I doubts myself

I sometimes doubt myself before other doubt me.

I wonder if I am a good friend? (I guess not good enough)
I dislike being an introvert. (but I don't know where to start)
I puzzle myself for what I dressed (seems out of the world sometimes)
I observe how people look at me (social self image)
I feel that I am insignificant (I hope good friends can call me at times)
I am a follower (I do what people asked me to)

I want to change, I want to have a new self.
Be a leader, get a fresh life.

I have fears but I think I will get it over! Yes!

CA is coming, feeling stress because I have not start on many things yet, begin to worry for my GPA.
加油 加油 加油!^_^

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..`—(__:__)—'..
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It's coming...

Dancing

School started two weeks ago and third week coming. Time is really flying in the Air just like how the Money drains down to the sea. However, money can earn back but time cannot. School work is still fine though difficult but still slacking away.

I feel that I begin to love dancing because it's a good way to release all unhappiness out and I will feel great! Maybe I should go master a dance! haha :D
DANCE DANCE DANCE today!

It was a great day! Was so pissed off during work but after work is so good.

Then I realized that most people gave their smiles to young children when the child simply look at them. However, when human grow up, we stop this. We stop smiling to each other and the world became "darker". That is why friends are created because friends will smile to each other. Best friends don't smile to each other only, they give each other a hug and a widest smile :)

~Love people around you and give them a smile~

LOVES

I realized that I love many things.
I am fortunate to have love all things in me.
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
I love myself
I love my family
I love my friends
I love being BEFRIENDER
I love dancing with my hearts out
I love Community Service & Cultural club
I love FLP; FJC
I love people who loves me too
I love everything that is with me
I love being who I am.
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
Just love it!! My motto for the day:D

Busy with Aspiration Camp(cca) and my own business.
School is starting where I hope it will never start. However, we have no choice and I am ready to work hard but the determination spam, I really don't know how long will it last.

Detox Camp (1 day)

It's a detox day while we take in things from nature instead of the processed ones.I brought a detox program that's why i get to go for free:] And it's a wonderful experience. Will love to have more of this activities.

Part 1) YOGA

Yoga is not about the pose but more about your mind, spirit and body. Although it is just a 1 hour yoga, the teacher was very thoughtful and detailed in every single step. The first thing to do is to clear your mind. So not think about anything but focus on your lower 'dan tian' belly. Middle 'dan tian' heart. Uupper 'dan tian': throat.
How often do we ask our body? Did we care about it? Listen and ask your body how is he/she everyday.
Most people are self-centered. the ME is very big and that they don't listen to people around them.

After the mind was settled, the first exercise is to start with foot. because that is the root connected to earth. To notice how important is our foot and it teaches us that being a human we must be straight, upright.

Why Buddhist cannot take meat? Why Muslims cannot take pork? Why the Indian cannot take beef? If we take of the skin, actually we are just humans.

Part 2) Lesson on why detox.
Because everything that we ate consist of chemicals like herbicides and pesticides.
Pollution is everywhere and because of the food like coffee, seafood, meat, alcohol and Sweet stuffs.
Constipation occurs with almost everybody so it's important to detox and let our liver rest after so many years of doing 'purifying' all toxic.
All the other organs will take a chance to rest too.

Then continue on SPA(Solus Par Aqua). How to do SPA that is relaxing and affordable at home?(even without the bath tub!)
Feel free to contact me if want to know more:]

Part 3) QI GONG
Learn how to breath When doing the 气功。(qi gong)
Learn 5 basic moves part of the Shao Lin gong fu. I forgot what it call though.
Very cool and more challenging! Like stretching your whole body with the right breathing. Some how like that. And to focus on the third-eye position for ladies while doing qi gong.
You will feel more flexible after the moves and great!

Part 4) Cha Cha DANCE!
I love this part the most. It's actually very simple but fun to play around because it is always 5 moves and can come out with many steps by turning or dancing with your partner. So FUN! I can provide free dance teaching session:]

That will end my day! SO fully being used.
Feel so great then rotting at home.

Blogging is a form or recording which makes me memorize too:)

Food.

Ever since I am on the weight lost journey, I became more particular about food.
Not the more fried or more yummy ones are te best. I think that the way of cookig and how it's process is important.
If the food is not well cook, it's not a waste of food if we don't finish but a waste of food when they didn't prepare the food well. Like the ingredient, too salty or too oily ect.
Hope that there will be an improment in the staff canteen at my work place.

Been quite busy lately but very well used. Feels like looking for a higher pay job.and not so lasting. Would it be good? I nit sure but no harm trying I guess.

Trying to save money for driving lesson because I am very broke now, nearly negative in bank!!
I will earn back the money!

Yes I Can! I definitely can:$

Peace by the River.

I got to think of this while I am blogging.
I have peace by the river, I have joy overflowing, I have life ever lasting in my soul. ~In My SOUL.
Haha, when I think of exams are over, it's really happy though I might not fair well in this last paper but still, it's happy.

However, I won't be really free during this holidays I guess. Lots of stuffs to do and lots of people that I want to meet up.
Going to Malaysia this sat and sun, so please do not call or sms me unless it's really urgent! :] Although I am not with my close friends, but I am sure to enjoy it since I am going and make this trip a meaningful one!
Feeling so excited, going to Sunway lagoon, then their 'night market' then to a convention to meet the billionaire! Sure to post lots of pictures after the trip:]
:]:]:]:]:]

F*U*C*K
People who know me will think that I got something wrong, I not going to scold vague.
To spread this: Friends U Can Keep!
Sounds interesting though it's a bit rude.

I got myself a saving account for 25 years long where I have to pay $73 per month, though it sounds crazy. But I think, why not? Save now for Future. Haha..
JIA YOU Yan Yee, JIA YOU EVERYBODY!
Take care of your health too!

I'm Fortunate

I realized that I have grown a lot in terms of the way of thinking. I am more positive, matured and more motivated because of Forever.
I am fortunate to know Forever!

Someone once ask me how much is the WANT in you? I was thinking and finally get into my head. How much I wanted to success? How much I wanted things to happen? If I didn't have the WANT, it will never happen because it's only thinking and not enforce into my mind.
The same person also taught me a important thing in life.
If we say: "I am really bad at....", "I really cannot....". Then you have already been defeated by your spirit. If in your mind you already think that you can't do it, you will never do it because you already think that you cannot do it so your mind will not tell your brain to do it and your actions will not be there. If you say that you can do it, no matter how hard it is, you will find a way to do it. Because your mind transmit the information to your brain that you can and will do it.

I am going to move, to step up, to break my shell and go for it, after my exams!
我要突破！

Fear

I was thinking about this on my way back home. Sometimes I wonder why I have fear and why humans have fear.

Fear of Darkness
Fear of losing love ones
Fear of Cockroaches/Insects
Fear of being Hurt
Fear of Hunger
Fear of Living
Fear of Exams
Fear of Big Stage
Fear of being rejected
Fear of Anything and Everything
~Fear for something that has not happen on us.

If there is no FEAR in the world's dictionary.
What would happen?
[Maybe people use afraid/scare] haha:]
If one is not fear of anything, it might be the only one on earth. I believe everyone have their own fears.

Most Importantly is to OVERCOME all Difficulties and fear in our hearts.
Learn something today from a friend of mine:
*~不要被困难打倒！------ 坚持努力，打倒困难！
YES I CAN! :D :]

Why wait when it can be done?

181th post today:]


I was wondering why many people like to wait for things to happen or wait to do something when it can be done like now (or sooner).
I think I am like this. The word, lazy, is best to describe.
Actually homework can be done today but will often wait till the last minute to do it.
Cleaning of house can be done any free time but will just simply wait till someone (Mum/Dad) told me.
Revision can start anytime, any day but often it falls on the few days before exams.
Have the ability and time to do sport but just can't bring it down and wait till the mood come.
Many new things can be experienced why wait till we are old? (legal stuffs i mean)
New things refer to things that was not done before.

Friends are always around but why wait to meet only when 'festival' comes?
Dreams are to fulfill and achieved but why wait till the day where we are going to the heaven?

There are many things that can be done now but I often choose to wait. I think majority of what I know, wait for things to happen. However, I hope to make things happen before anyone else. It is going to be a tough journey but I am not giving up!
NO LIMIT!! [From many reports, we can see that Humans has no limit in everything, all crazy things are done by humans.]

Went to Malaysia today. Basically a food journey, went there shopping and eat and buy food back:] haha! Then I know that my dad can speak and understand Malay quite well. So many things that i have just discovered from my dad. :D

A day passed.

Had my SSM exam today, thought that it was quite last minute of my revision but it still came out well, just hope to score well in this subject to pull my GPA. Really realized that if my GPA continue to fall below, 3, it's not going to do me any good.
Therefore, I have set a schedule for myself but didn't follow it today. Where is my determination? Hope that tomorrow can make it. I will, I must follow the schedule!
Jia You YY! Yes I Can:]

Then had befrienders meeting for 2 hours over the Msn until 12 plus am and it's now 1am. Time passes really fast, why can't it slow down for sometimes. It's Thursday now where I was think whether to buy i-weekly on Mon.
Watching a series of Drama now. But I won't neglect my revision! (Maybe a little?) haha:]

How about my mooncake business?
Looks pretty well, on the bright side, got one person order 4 boxes from me today! A good news but the stocks are shortage now but should not be a problem! Excited! Learn from SSM, customer service is important in making sales:]
Jia You Jia You Jia You!!!

Be Motivated.

I really have to FOCUS now. Seeing my peers all so serious on studying, I should really focus now. Don't be distracted to other stuffs like internet/television/work too much.

Wanted to start off today but can't be settled down to study. I guess I would need someone to really sit with me to study. Hope that everything will go well.


Edit a picture of me while distressing. Turns up to be quite good though. Wanted to be put as profile picture but I think it's okay.

GOOD NIght & Sweet Dreams:]

Unsure

Sometimes, I don't know what I really want.
LOSS in no where, don't know where I am heading. But I just move on according to plans, do I have a choice?

Consider a good day today?
Finally went swimming after so long! Feel Great Doing something! WO..

Meeting with all my blur befrienders with Caring Jia Yi:]
*Cute Blur Keli
*Out-going Blur Hilda
*Cheeky Blur Jun Hong
*Quite-Shy Blur Malvina
Let's Jia Yous!!
Examinations just around the corner. Work hard for it and work hard for Befrienders.
[NICE presentation of the slides]
Went for dinner after Aspiration Camp Meeting. Look at bunch of interactive juniors. Hope to know them soon:]

Time pass so fast that I didn't notice that next week is exam already.
COME ON! Time to put in EFFORTS and ACTIONS!
"YES I CAN!"

Met with one of my senior last week after long time. Thanks for her supportive here.
My dear friend send me a message today which I find it very meaningful and true.
"Friendship isn't about whom you have known the longest, who came first or who cares the most. It's about who came and never left!"

My thoughts

Yesterday
WOO! Like he feeling of blogging at night. Peacefully and can go sleep after my blogging:]

Anyway, meet up with friends today for lunch, movie [after shock], dinner, prawning. My first prawning section:] Prawning is actually quite fun but the waiting needs patient! Lucky got a guy to pick up prawns if not, no prawns. My luck wasn't good though. Should try harder next time.

We shouldn't take friends for granted I think, it's actually a fate to become friends though they have many many different characters but I will try to 'adjust'. It's is great to have friends who are understandable but not all are.

Sales of mooncakes is slow. I learn that flyers will create low response rate. Thanks to people who have supported me and hope those who have not tried, is a must not miss thing:]

I should remind myself to study from now onwards! If not it would be hard to catch up:)
That is all for today!
Good Night zzzZZZ

Experience

People say: 经一事长一智. (you experience one event, you will grow to have a knowledge)

I had gave out the flyers around my block today.

The experience is really __________ no words to describe unless you experience it. Preparing the flyers too me many hours of my night time till like 1-3am but I give it out within 1 hour and people can simply throw it within 1 min. I think I have learn to treasure the flyers if it require extra work to be done. It's really not easy and you will never know how will the response be and start to worry.
I really kind of experience how a business works. It is not as easy as it seems to be. However, you will feel the bitter sweet when there is order. (It is still bitter for me)

I will try my very best to accomplished my mooncake task! and I will (+U)JIA YOU!!! never give up.
Sometimes I will just lost my confident and not do something that I am suppose to do. This is something that I need to train now. to be more outgoing! :[]

Had a experience dinner too, walk all the way to eat nasi lemak from yishun mrt(raining half-way through eating) then had beancub. Hope that CS can be more united and stay together:}

Really wanted to meet up with friends that have not been meeting for "years". But everyone seems to be busy while I am free?

I will work hard!

iPod post!

Posting with IPod now!!! Wow.. It is finally avaliable to blog using iPod. This means that I can blog at anywhere with WiFi service:] what a good news:)

Anyway, quite happy that it's Finally the holidays that I have been waited for but with many things to.
Suddendly got the mood to study because I'm studying last minute yesterday and basically today then start memorising! I can still able to remember most but not all.. It's holidays so I guess studyig can be places aside for the moment.

As many of you might know, I am selling mooncakes. Please read previous blog for information.

So long never meet up with friends and important ones. Very often I have no plans to hangout when I am very free but was so pack with package that she for

Healthier Choice 锦伦泰 Mooncakes

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The rest are as stated as above.

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The packaging for a box of mooncakes with 4.


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Thank you and have a great Mid-Autumn Festival ahead!

Things don't always go smoothly

It is natural that things don't always happen in a way that they like. There is bound to have obstacles in life. Some might be BIG and some might be small.

I have a Dream, to achieve financial freedom and able to help more needy people financially and physically. Only a month ago that I think there is a way that my dreams may come true. It is possible. But somehow, there are many obstacles that I need to pass through to get in the first step.
I never thought of working for someone for life because my dream will never come true.I would probably surrender my i/c (died) by the time I am able to achieve my dreams or could have probably gone somewhere else.
I never thought that I am so luck to strike a lottery because I don't buy in the first place and the chances of me striking the lightning is higher.
I never thought of working many many jobs to achieve the income because I am not a robot.
I never thought of getting a higher degree to get a higher job because study is not my interest. And it's still working for someone.
I never thought of borrowing money from someone. Because the Dream is still not achieved.
I have thought of starting my small business but I don't have the cash and the experience and I can't afford the risk.

Resilience skills are needed to overcome all the back out that we get in daily life.

To get this first step is really tough. But...

Life goes on and it will be better. That is what I believe. I will never give up on my dream. And I will find all sorts of way to achieve it.
I believe I can, I am the BEST! Yes I can, WE can, EVERYONE can!

Choice

"The choice is yours."

We often heard people say this and today, i find it really true.
Just as I was reach the Mrt station, i saw my bus coming but from Mrt to the bus stop is of some distance. I walk and was thinking if I should run to board the bus. After some time, I decide to go for it but just as I reach, the bus also left. At that point I was thinking that it is somehow similar to life.
We have the choice to do certain things and make decision. I would most probably board the bus if I had decided to run earlier. Many will think back and regret saying that "I should have...". However, I think that it is more important to reflect on what we have done wrong and don't make the same mistake again. Learn from mistakes and don't repeat it again.

I always told myself that it is time to exercise but it was not put into action always. Jia You to myself then.

SSM to do report and presentation! UCCD presentation! FMA test! All the tutorials! Can I do all in a day? most probably not.

A sudden blind

Have anyone got a experience of sudden black out while you are still conscious?

First time in my life that I have experience a sudden blind for like 1 min?? Everything just turn out and it was all black in front of me, not even a single ray of light can be seen. It was scary? But I guess I was quite clam and luckily my mum came to help me just at the right moment. It was still conscious and thoughts came through my mind then I realized how important our eyes are. Not only our eyes but all the senses as they are somehow linked! Now, I learn to treasure what I see; the colours, the pictures that I see through my eyes everyday. I think everyone learn from lesson/mistakes and we grow. That is Life, continuing the learning process even till old.

No worries, doctor said that there wasn't any big problem so I am relieve. However, the cause to this incident was not known. Under investigations?? haha.

I would also like to thank all people who wished me well and my classmates who gave a 'interesting call'. They are really bunch of people who bring joy:] Also my dad who took leave to accompany to the doctor:]
~~Thank you all!~~

I think I should improve on my responsiveness, I was slow to adapt the changes. When a lady fell just now, my father react faster than me to hold her although I saw it first. I should be more attentive!

Feel Homed

Blogging is a place to put all things I want to share. It is better to blog when your thoughts come as it will be forgotten if left away too long..


[There is always HOPE. Don't give up but move on!]

I think that to enjoy your food alone, the best way is that the placed let you feel homed. This is what I did for tonight's dinner. I just randomly visited the waffles shop although there are few or no customer at all, I enjoyed eating there because the auntie will talk to you like your friend and it's like a good feeling. After eating you will smile and not frown.

My psychological thought me new things again. Emotional Distortion; "often, our emotion is our own enemy and is subjected to our unwarranted negative feelings, this in turn prevents us of our ability to act positively.." Very True! Sometimes is what we think instead of what others see.
People say, you are what you eat and I add on; you are what you think!

They succeed because they think they can.

Look on the positive side and never give up :[]

Day before

[look at it and realized it instead of passing by it! there might be good stuffs for you!]

Woos.. Holidays will end in a couple of minutes and it's Monday!! Feel like I have not done things for my school but I don't know what I am suppose to do! I should have finish my RWPS (report writing) in this holiday but I didn't. And my tutorials not done! Have to rush like mad when school starts! Oh my god! time should really stop while I can still do my stiffs.

Sometimes we will meet strangers on street but it may be a good thing too:]

Going for a haircut at Toni & Guy by this week!

I found out that people with goals and dreams live much more happier than those without. Because once we have the goal then we will try very hard to reach for it. And the process, the experience is not what you can get by studying. It seems that I had found my goals and I am willing to try and give all my best.

~Failures will bring along success as we learn from our failures. Nothing can't be solved! Most of the time it depends on the willingness to do it. Which I thought was pretty true and that is life!

If you have a business mind set, a heart to strive & a willingness to try, find me:]

Good. Bad.

Let me start me a sharing first.
it's grap from my friend's blog:] Something interesting

:[]

What is good and what is bad? It is somehow hard to determine at times.

Have been thinking about what is meant by a good person and what is meant by a bad person. If the person is very kind but has a hot temper when doing stuffs does it mean it's good/bad? If a person commit crimes but have turnover a new leaf, is it good/bad.
Very often, I think, the answer depends on how we judge a person's personality.

I realized that actually I am quite hot tempered at times, not subjected to last minute changes:P
How I hope there is one day more after SUNDAY. How I hope there is more hours per day! Time is flying so fast!

Life. How to define?

Still, living positively, thinking positively everyday!

Long Long Journey

Guess what?
[Yesterday]
I took bus can take 3 buses just to reach Harbor Front from my house. It's a long story but I explore places in Singapore by doing so. Haha. Of course, I would never want to try that again. I guess if I were to drive next time, I might need to refill lots of fuel each day. Singapore is small but I got so many places which is unknown to me.

Yea. Blogger gave me surprise today! Now, they finally have some new and beautiful templates with a advance setup. Damm COOL and I finally got my blog to the design that I always wanted. Simple & sweet, close to nature:] Oh, I never talk about how I got my blog name right. I have been thinking for a long time and the inspiration just came (Simplicity is the main word). "esimplicityyy= the Simplcity YY" The name looks nice and sounds nice so that is it! No second thoughts.

I had a great lunch with my friend today! Awesome one because we are filled with STEAMBOAT FOOD at Illuma there, the Japanese shop (Can't remember the shop name but it's the level 4). There things are delicious with a very comfortable environment but are not allowed to take pictures:(

I got some achievement today! Very happy. Ever since I found my goals, I felt very excited and happy but I don't know how long will the excitement last but I will move on:]

Today will be a less stress and more delighted blog & more random & more Singlish! haha:] Hope my schedule will be planned out well, things already starts crushing one another. :(
DISCIPLINE!!

Relieve. Excited.

Woohoo..
I can throw away school work aside for the time being. At least I got a few days break before the hectic schedules comes again!
Really feel like giving up my work in order to gain more time for what I really love to do. I felt so wanted to quit but words just cannot come out from my mouth. I didn't know that quitting need courage too:(

Anyway, leave that aside, it's a happy day! Haha:]

Just as I am packing up my stuffs, that I wanted to give away. I somehow hesitate to pack some them up some up although I did not use them for years but was thinking maybe next time I would need it or it is a gift from someone. But I think it's time to make up my mind. Hope that it will be useful to another person.

Many thoughts run through and stays in my mind these days. I think I am very determine to pursue what I really want in future, my DREAMS. Even if it was not success, at least I tried.
Failure is not scary, the scary thing is that we are afraid of failure. I will move when everything is ready:]
That is how life goes, we tried, we 'taste' the success or failure. If we never even try, we would never have a 'taste' of it.



~~Ups and Downs flows by...~~

What do you see?

Psychological & Counseling is a recharge for me every week, the only module that I will look forward to it sometimes. Really can learn a lot of meaningful thing.

Today, after going through how people will see another person with many different view, I felt that because the way we see people results to a lot of misunderstanding among people. There are 16 of them but I am going to list out a few which happens most common.
[Thinking Distortion]
~Fatalising: Always think of the worst situation where there are some alternative. This is a very negative way of thinking which I think why there are so many suicide cases. There is always a road for you to move on.

~Causal Reasoning: Make conclusion without evidence support. Simply means that you judge things not looking at the real whole situation. I think we always did that because we believe the words from other people, judging by seeing only the small part of the whole story. Jumping to conclusion.

~Over generalizing: Believe that something in one case is true will always be true. "You are always late" but your friend is only late this once.

~Personalizing: Puts the blame all towards yourselves no matter what happen. Eg. "The group did not do well, It's all my fault." Which it is not always the case and causes stress level increase, felt useless.

~Externalizing: Put the blame all on other people while it's actually your fault. Eg. "I came late to class because traffic jam etc." While the fact is that you woke up late. I think that it has become very common among teenagers and people like me. We always give all sort of reasons to ourselves where we are sometimes the one at fault.

~Discount positive: This is interesting. This means that you will make a discount to the achievements you had made. Eg. "You have study very hard for examination and scored a 'A' but you said it's just luck."

~The "I should have...": This the term regret, always looking back. "I should have study harder." It is the same as to cry over spill milk. Myself also did that, we always thing of the past that we should have do this, should have do that. The present is what we must care and the past is what we cannot change so just move on as normal and strive harder before regret.

~Tunnel Vision: This is the one that impact me the most because it is so true. It means that we only see things through the imaginary tunnel by us. Only focus on the negative part.
[There is no one to help me]


Instead of the big picture.
[The world is full of people who can help you]

From now onwards, I think we should all see the big picture instead of the small parts of it.

"I did not change, it is the way you judge me changes."
This is my sharing today, those who have the symptoms above, we should all reflect about it:] To be a better person, sometimes letting it go is better than to hand on to it. Of course, the word revenge, misunderstanding will not form if we can all be so forgiving but I think it is somehow a way to release yourselves.
Start to think good today!!:]

Secrets

Do everyone have a secret? I guess so. Sometimes things just can't be shared or it is best to keep it to yourself. I think it is one of the main reason which people become 'emo' which was most of the time where I find it hard to talk it out and stays in my heart till in occupy the spaces in it.
Forgetting may be a kind of relief at times so that we do not add on the burdens on us. Throw them out of the windows:] If there is so many and many more burdens to carry along our life, by the time we become old, we would most probably crush by the overloaded burdens that we add on to it ourselves.

Conclusion; why not we put down all unhappiness and leave on with all happiness? It is hard to achieve because people think that it is hard. i am learning to move on with my life for all happiness that I remembered.

Getting a very good sleep at night, hard to not fall asleep.. zZZZ

My Decision

Have been thinking recently. Taking a step to mlm(direct marketing) for where I first have objections to it those mlm kind of selling, not the products. Now, I feel that I am convinced. I know that things won't come so easy, I will pass through many obstacles etc. However, I am not ready to take up this challenge yet, maybe to learn for a knowledge. Intend to support my brother but I feel like doing it now.

Life is really unpredictable, you won't know what might change you and your life.

Feeling very tired, doing project alone is really a sad thing and there is two to be handed up next week. Really Chiong chiong chiong ar..........

Dreams, don't everyone have one? I have one. It's like the bubbles, seems to break easily and disappear fast too. This is kind of true, when we step into working life, do we still dream of what we had dream in the past? (most people would say No.) Our dreams seems further, harder to fulfill. If bubbles get too big, it will burst. Not to say, we can't dream big but have to be realistic. Maybe I will met someone that can help me fulfill my dream in this life.

Start a fresh everyday! Be happy:]

I am back!

WOoHooo..

The feeling of using my laptop without any problem is damm good! Just that I have to download some software again like MSN, some SP software, Itunes etc. Should take my time to download when I am free.
Feel so good that I can blog here:] However, blogger still not working well.



I think I am really crazy sometimes, I spent like nobody's business and not that I am rich. Time to save up I guess:] The Devil & Angels of mine is fighting away whenever I am considering to buy stuffs. AndI always give in to my devil which results in the broke situation now. haha:D
~I should also improve on my typing skills as it is really quite lousy.~

Have to rush my tutorials now, have yet to get started.
So End here for today:] Wish everyone good luck:]:]

Lack of it

Oh Man. If you all had seen my facebook, you would have probably know that my laptop is totally a mass and my i-pod touch will auto restart/shutdown by itself. Using my brother's laptop for homework or project stuffs. Luckily we have many notebooks at home:]
HAI... Why me? Positively we should think; Why Not me? Everyone encounters problems with computers or stuffs. Okay, make it seems common.

My brothers are quite sweet at times:] Help my carry my bag on our way home today. haha:]

Anyway, I think that I am somehow quite cautious of how people judge me at times. Maybe I think too much, maybe it's true. Anyway, it doesn't matter, just live normally.

Share

It's amazing that someone invented blogger that people start to express it's thought online. However, just sometime like this where they got problem, I can't change the front and colour of my post.



To begin, let me share something interesting. I realised that I am more of a electric saver compared to my parents because I would tend to switch off the lights while they leave it open unused and off the unused appliances too. Thats quite a good thing:]

Finally, I would say. Less my work load now, due to all the awaiting projects undone, sort of take a long leave from my work. It is time to get started revise and finish up all the projects. Encourage myself and strive towards my goal!

I was watching 百万大歌星，and it reminds me of two songs that used to be my favorite.
~~Lemon Tree~~
By_ 苏慧伦

&
~~真夏的櫻花 ~~
By_ 張善為

I like the weather today, kind of nice and cooling.
Everyone is different, everyone is special, everyone is a treasure, no one is perfect.
When tomorrow comes, it's a new start again. Moving on..

Follow up

Things going wrong with blogger again. But it's not going to stop me from blogging anyway.

~Yesterday,
First time in my life, I step into a Church to do research. It's the church of St Mary of the Angels. It's a nice, beautiful and peaceful place, as I believed they had just renovate.

The Father was very cooperative with us and answered all or more than all the questions. Now I know that Catholic believe is "To Love God and your neighbors(the ones beside you)" It seems all about peace which I think the modern world now, it's not possible achieve. (Not possible to have all things in a ethical way) It was interesting talk I could say.

Guess what? I am feeling a little weird not doing things, feels like something is missing although I am less busy. But still, hate my work. I feel like quitting every time I step in, my mind is about quitting.

I guess everyone is busy now, hard to meet up even for a dinner.

Projects!! I have like exactly 2 weeks to finish up report and presentation individually.
I just realized that my class register number is 7. haha.. Would it be a lucky 7 for me? Hope the answer is yes!

Strengths & Weaknesses

That is the most common thing asked during interviews etc.
Everyone has their own strengths and weakness, no one is perfect.
Let me share my Strengths and Weaknesses:]
the GOODS;
~Try to look at the bright side when some things bad had happen.
~I don't really judge people
~ I have responsible in things that I do. (that's why I think so hard to whether to quit my job)
the BADS;
> Easily Give up/ give in
> I don't like changes, changes will make me a mess! [I can't adapt the change]
> Lack of some motivations in me.

Falling ill is really bad!! Takes long time heal and hard to get good sleep:[
Seldom revise my tutorials. I think I should get started, if my my GPA sure fall but not today. I am going to get real enough SLEEP!
WORK HARD for GPA!!!

Let me share a nice song here.
~Your Love is a Lie~ Simple Plan
Click here for youtube

Abnormal

Week 3 of this semester. That is fast but

I think my sore throat is getting worst which slows down my respond system. I saw all the familiar faces of my friends but I can't respond fast enough to wave or make a smile. That is really bad but it is not what I wanted. So forgive me:] Anyway, I know the no one look at my blog.

Ending her to do my tutorials later:]

A terrible day.

People fall ill easily nowadays just like me!! More and more frequent that I got soar throats which I don't really know why. Did I not drank enough water or etc.?

Anyway, feeling unwell and going to work. The feeling can only be expressed in a word called terrible. I am really angry and pissed off yesterday because I got to work next week where they promised me not to plan schedule during my school days.
Furthermore, a lot of people cheat money yesterday. It was $2.30 for three balls, so obvious and they.. I don't know it is of purpose that gave me a lot of coins and ran away when there is short of like a few cents. It's still ok, maybe they are 'CARELESS'. The worst is a mother which buy 5 boxes, should be $11.50 her kids said so many times it's $11.50 and she throw like $8 notes plus all her coins (around $10 in total) and walk away while I am serving the next customer. I don't know why they want to do this kind of thing and worst, in front of her kids. It's really no words to her.

Projects start to come. I better take care of myself:] Jia You ba.
Look on the bright side>>>>>>>>>

Striving

Our journey goes on and on...
(i-pod touch do gives me a lot of nice graphics:])

Blogging quite frequently these days. Just feels like, a channel to express my emotions in words:]

I think I am going to start admire my brother (second one) more because I can see that he really works hard to reach his goals. Being a successful gym trainer, selling complimentary products and a boss of his own. I always see him holding on to a book at night and the book is definitely about successful business or stuffs. I am willing to help him as much as I could.
Good Job man, although I know he don't visit my blog. But deep in my heart I am really happy that he strives for what he wants and he knows where exactly he want to be.
Even if if fails(*touch wood*) at least he tried he best. I strongly believe that he will definitely be a successful person in future. A long road ahead. What I could do is only to support him as much as I could.

Anyone who wants a gym train up or weight loss program or a healthier living can contact my me /(leave a comment on my post):]:] My brother definitely will do a great job, not being bias here. haha. Okay, I'll stop promoting.

My life is a little bored without my usual cliques in school, I guess I would need more time. Really wanted to go shopping! And should start the projects soon if not I will have to rush later on.

Time to watch the 2hours documentary which i have to write a report for it!

Good luck to myself!!:]

It's time

End of the first School week. Past very fast as usual.

Ok, I think my moody phrase is going to end because pms is over soon. Haha.. Anyway, yesterday was really bad. However, we should always look towards the bright side!! If keep thinking about the bad things in the past, I think I will soon have depression because there are so many unhappy stuffs but it is the history and stays in the past. Now is the present and the future is our concern.

In Chinese we always say “做人要往前看，过去的就然它过去吧。”
就重要是要好好把握现在。。

Everyday is going to be a bright and fresh start for me:]:}
At least now, I believe in myself.

Untittled

Sometimes it is good that no much people look at your blog because I can post anything and no one will know:]

I should just talk to my blog.
Dear blog, I am very dishearten and sad because something really awful happens to me today. From psychological view, things weight different to different people somethings may affect me greatly while you think is nothing. I think it will stays with me for quite sometime.

I really love this song...

>Whataya want from me<

Hey, slow it down whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
Yeah I'm afraid whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

There might have been a time
When I would give myself away
Oooh once upon a time I didn't give a damn
But now, here we are so whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

Just don't give up I'm workin it out
Please don't give in, I will let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

Yeah, it's plain to see (plain to see)
that baby you're beautiful
And there's nothing wrong with you
(nothing wrong with you)
It's me, I'm a freak (yeah)
but thanks for lovin' me
Cause you're doing it perfectly
(it perfectly)

There might have been a time
When I would let you slip away
I wouldn't even try
But I think you could save my life

Just don't give up I'm workin' it out
Please don't give in, I won't let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep comin around
Hey, whataya want from me (Whataya want from me)
Whataya want from me (Whataya want from me)

Just don't give up on me
(uuuuuuh) I won't let you down
No, I won't let you down

(So hey) just don't give up
I'm workin it out
Please don't give in,
I won't let you down
It messed me up (It messed me up)
Need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me

Just don't give up I'm workin' it out
Please don't give in, i won't let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me (whataya want from me)
whataya want from me (whataya want from me)
whataya want from me

Mood-less & Sunday blues because I am forced to work tomorrow.
Blog, I feels like I am still living in a dream, things seems to be unreal. Out if a sudden, I belong to somewhere where I don't use to be. It's a strange feeling and saddens me most of the time.

Start of a NEW

It's the start of the new academic year. New stuffs, everything still quite unfamiliar but it's getting better I think. Hope that we can really bond well because we will be in the same class for the next two years.

Changed my blog skin a little because I just feel like doing it. Getting bored of the old one, this also marks the start of a new chapter to me. Just that I did not change the blog link which I hope to change. There is no shoutbox because no one is using it anyway. If you have any comments just comment on the post itself.

[:加油 yanyee:]!!!

A Long Day

I went out for a dinner with Eve yesterday night, after which we went to catch a movie.

Overall, it's a movie which leave space for audience to think. Some bloody scene and nice graphics & artistic views. Experiencing a 360 degree turn of the whole story. Interesting. :]
And lucky enough to take the last bus home which taught me not to be too concentrated on my i-touch when sitting night bus. Because it goes so fast that really didn't notice that my stop have pass. So I alighted three stops after I miss it and came to realized it. And walk my way back.

I woke up at around 8am to prepare for work till 6pm then when to East Coast Park for CCA BBQ session [called Social Gathering]. Basically I only ate three chicken satay and i brought stuffs from BK to fill ourselves as it took quite long for the food to be ready. Furthermore, I was not very active because those that I often talk too, back up. So didn't stay over and went home but did not manage to catch the last bus so took a cab home. It was much cheaper compared to the other time where I took from orchard. From Parkway Parade to my home cost $13.50.

Reached home before 1am.

Rest well! Schools going to start so fast!!:]

Life

How's your life?

Some might think miserable, some think boring, some think it's good most think that it's just average (can be better).

Feeling down that there is no good news recently (neither from friends nor family).
Umm, what can I say, life is like that lor. There are ups and downs phrase and we will been through a lot a lot more as we grow older. I often think that is up to how we think of our life but it dosen't seems right at times. I don't know really. It's complicated.

Feels like encouraging people around me but not really useful. I am glad to share good stuffs and lend my listening ears when needed. What can I say? I am not a person who can leave impact on others and change the history. But we can hold the future because the future is in our hands.

Just like blogging, it's a form of sharing my thoughts but I don't even know if anyone read my blog then will feel sian diao?
Sometimes I feel like I am not myself because I did something which I think I won't or have a feel that others got another view of me. I hate to think of this. I think I think too much..

Life...

Heart to Heart

Many thoughts run through my mind these few days.

First is my work. I have finally told my manager that I will only work during like holidays so my Saturday and Sunday will be free:] This makes me a little happy today. However, I met a sarcastic people today. 'It' was trying to steal our plastic bag not just one but the whole packet kind because our bags are placed outside and 'it' still so 厚脸皮, came back to me say our balls uncooked but 'it' didn't even eat/ touch yet and I guarantee that it's cooked . Just because we exposed ‘it' in public, 'it' 鸡蛋里挑骨头 , give us troubles. Seriously, why got these people on earth? One more thing, I realized that I will never had an empty stomach when I leave taka because there is always food at the end of the day:] haha.

Second is my school work (of course). School is going to start so soon, feeling a little uneasy and unsure of what going to happen because I am going into a new class, new modules, new lecturers & new friends. I should say that I am a little afraid of those uncertainties that might happen. And hope that it will be a smooth journey ahead. I reflect on myself thinking why my grades are not so good. It is just a simple reason, because I have not work hard. If I had revise my work, it will turn up better I guess. But my reflection only stay with me for sometime and I will forget and back to that lazy me again. 加油！ ba.

Third is my friends. Long time never meet up with good friends because of camps and work and CCA but no one find me also. Very often I'll not receive a single message for the whole day; peaceful right. I am feeling glad also because someone grow up and began to have heart to heart talks? And glad also because he/she is working hard for his/her love. Wow, 长大了。

Lastly, about myself. Thinking a lot recently, feels that the world is never peace when heard the news this afternoon; like all the terrorist, 'red shirt' troops in Thailand etc. It is hard/never possible that we will live in total peace.
顺其自然 is the word. What will happen will happen, hard to avoid (maybe can?). The god's will is what humans cannot control, just let it be. However, I still believe in myself. Strive for the best. I am wondering if I had changed? Not really, I am still that introvert who is shy to open herself in front of others but one thing is that I have more courage, dare to speak up more working hard to talk as much as I can. More rooms for improvements to become a better person:]
Going for a "emo" shopping session with myself to adjust a bit and buy clothes!

Finally~加油，加油，加油!!! Fighting! ~

CSCC Freshmen Orientation Camp 10/11

Wow. Yummy Yummy:)

The feeling is great after this Camp, I have enjoyed it and I think the rest also enjoyed it:] We had fun and stay late together. All the memories will be kept in my heart. Although it's tiring but I just feel happy about it, make new friends or we become closer to one another. Suddenly, I felt a sense of belonging to CSCC when we are about to break camp.

However, it was great that there will be less work for me now and I can start to enjoy my holidays more as it'll be ending very soon!! Oh man, it's a sad thing when time pass so fast, the great things will be over and though things will be coming.

Nevermind, just have to believe in myself.

Good job to everyone who have help up in the FOC this year. The OCs, GPs, GLs & campers.
I thought that I will regret joining the camp and being the OC but from now, I am glad that I am part of the camp. ;] Just one more part for me to do, printing of photos and slot them in the albums. I guess I will like it. Can see the photos:] Cool.

I finally finish the video for CS sub-com!! Feeling awesome:] Go Facebook and check it out! Should really plan for a next CS outing!!
Many mosquitoes bite on my leg and I don't know why my legs are cramp when I din't do vigorous exercise or something.

>>WE~~~ are the CHAMPIONS~~~ [Haha, the epic moment]

First time

Wo, first time is for i touch. First time purchase a expensive electronic device other than my laptop. S$468 for a 32GB one. Got a little emotional because it's my hard-earned money on a thing smaller than my laptop but more expensive if compared.
Anyway, I am going to make good use of it. This will not only entertain me with the games but also the news everyday which also act as a organizer which will contribute to my studies and convenient sake. So that it is worth it.

Jia You ba, money can be earn back:]:]

My results are out but not satisfying due to the poor result of less than 3.0GPA. Hai... I guess I really got to work much harder in the next two years because everyone is like getting 3.0 and above or full marks 4.0. Hope that I will not slack like now and wake up to face the reality of the world. STUDY to GAIN KNOWLEDGE!!!

Really hope to leave more time for my family and myself during this holiday. After Camp ba. :]:]

Any Suggestion?

Yo, I have dyed my HAIR:} Haha. Using the bubble dye:]

The equipments are:

Prepare yourselves for the dye!! And leave it on for 30mins:


Finally, wash off and apply conditional, it's DONE: as easy as that.
Chestnut Brown

You can compare with your photos last time:]


I am so tempted to buy a iPod touch now!! Can play games, listen to music, videos etc. Looks so fun. 8GB is at S$199 & 32GB at S$299 purchased online which have free delivery & free craving on the ipod touch. So Cool right.
>>The iPod Touch link
Should I buy??? Can anyone give me any suggestions?

Somehow feels like, somehow don't feels like.

Once awhile

Finally, I feel that I have a little time now. I should do blogging!! haha:]

Anyway, I still have quite a number of stuffs to complete.
1) Do Exercise [growing fatter:)]
2) Find time to go my auntie house
3) Find time to Dye my hair:}
4) Earn more money$$ [spending a lot this month]
5) Meet up with friends during holidays
6) Spend more time with my family
7) Complete the task given to me (my CCA-CSCC)
8) Learn new things [Languages, books, etc.]
9) Do something meaningful
10) Enjoy my LIFE! Be Happy EVERYDAY!! Forget all unhappy stuffs

Sharing Time!!

I am in love with 罗志祥 & 黄鸿升(小鬼）songs.

羅志祥 - 習慣就好
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sXY4L0qYkIk

你的手机又收不到 我像疯子在街上绕
努力跑 你的温度 雨淋过几条街都散不掉
你面无表情的嘴角 像在嘲笑我的胡闹
回头看 突然明暸 爱过了使用期效你就想逃
我想维持礼貌忘记骄傲 继续做你唯一的城堡

习惯就好 习惯就好 是我选择看不到分手预兆
没有一丝睡意的困扰无法治疗
习惯就好 习惯就好 我承认我的伪装是真的不够好
请给我 多一秒

你的手机又收不到 我像疯子在街上绕
努力跑 你的温度 雨淋过几条街都散不掉
你面无表情的嘴角 像在嘲笑我的胡闹
回头看 突然明暸 爱过了使用期效你就想逃
我想维持礼貌忘记骄傲 继续做你唯一的城堡

习惯就好 习惯就好 是我选择看不到分手预兆
没有一丝睡意的困扰无法治疗
习惯就好 习惯就好 我承认我的伪装是真的不够好
请给我 多一秒

习惯就好 习惯就好 一个人在夜里继续的奔跑
却发现再也听不到 自己的心跳
习惯就好 习惯就好 我承认我的伪装是真的不够好
请给我 多一秒 一秒

黃鴻升-搞砸了
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2lf_vx-fX_4&feature=related


黃鴻升- 我不要長生不老
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YiF2inAZxKc&feature=related

Fresh

Everything had been like a dream to me. 全部东西都好像一场梦。
迷迷糊糊的就过去了。 感觉不踏实。。

Feel like I have miss out something important and something not right. Anyway, I didn't put in all my effort to my exams but only somehow merely a 50-80%?? A year's module and I finished revising them in 1-2 days. And slacking all the time. Exam is over but the worst of all is coming. The Final results.

I make a miracle today. I slept at 4+am and wake up 'automatically' before 8.30am. I am still alive now. haha:]

Life is really unpredictable.

Thanks Andre and Ruby for my belated birthday gifts. It can only be conclude as awesome:] Really useful to me.
I am going to dye my hair soon.

~Life is REALLY Unpredictable~

In love with this song when I listen more times.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X9oMtbWmZQk
Lyrics:
你開始會計劃未來了
滿臉認真拉我看新領的存摺
像火山的脾氣少很多
很忙也會記得抽空聯絡

你做的事我都看見了
所以抱你的時候眼裡紅紅的
就算你有時候會犯錯
怎麼捨得再不開心什麼

＊你答應送我三個願望
　第一個希望你能健康開朗
　第二個希望我能更懂體諒
　第三個希望我們永遠有話講＊

＃其實我不用三個願望
　每一天都有感動值得收藏
　每一夜天使陪我祈禱仰望
　每滴淚都被你的魔法變陽光＃

因為很愛所以會想通
不再去堅持己見讓彼此難過
當感情很穩定很濃厚
退讓也會有種甜蜜感受

Repeat＊＃

感謝我們的愛情沒有翅膀
一步步走在往幸福的路上
才有足夠的時間好好欣賞
兩顆心春夏秋冬細緻的風光

Repeat＃